Unbearable Pain

Losing my parents was awful but yesterday I lost my best friend, the one I called sister.

I don't think this pain will ever go away.

Car Insurance

My dad got a letter from Allstate today telling him that, as a courtesy, they would extend his car insurance 30 days but he must submit payment immediately.

Dad would be on the phone with them now if he could and he is probably annoyed at me for not calling them.  Dad gave up his car at least four years ago and canceled his insurance then.  He even got a refund for months not used.

Dad's Response To Mail

My dad still gets mail a couple of times a week.  He gets credit card offers, opportunities to buy car insurance and requests for donations.  Every time I toss one of these requests I hear him on the phone, calling the 800 numbers and saying.  "I died October 16, 2013.  I don't have a car anymore.  I don't need a new credit card and I can't afford to give you any money since I no longer get a pension or social security.  Please remove me from your list."

Missing Dad

This week has been the first time my sister has returned to New York since our dad died.  I've been trying to do things with her she never got to do in all the times she came in to visit him.

I know she is having a good time, but there still is that void.  She misses his demands, his phone calls and his constant worrying.  I do too, but I guess because I am here it has gotten a little easier.

90th Birthday

My dad would have been 90 today.  I would have gotten up early, picked him up and we would have gone to IHOP, one of his favorite places to eat.  Then, we would have gone to the Casino in Yonkers and I would have watched as he happily put his pennies into the slot machine, talking and rubbing it to get a win and walking around looking for the lucky machine.  We probably would have then gone to the butcher where he got his meatballs and told everyone he met it was his birthday. The pretty cashier would have given him a container of soup or a kugel as a gift.  She loved him because he reminded her of her grandfather.  I chuckled because he thought she was hot for him.  I imagine she and the others who work there must know he is gone since he hasn't been around in so long.

 Dad celebrating birthday in IHOP 2011.  Boy was he surprised and happy when everyone sang to him.

Dad today

Reminder of Dad

I watched a physical therapist help an elderly man walk today.  She held the back of his pants and gave him instructions to guide him with his walker.  An aide walked close behind with his wheel chair so he would be able to sit any time he needed to.

My eyes filled with tears.  We did the same thing with my dad.

Jury Duty

My dad loved jury duty.  He loved being on cases, being the foreman, being the one in charge.

I did not inherit his love of jury duty.